One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

I’m really trying hard to eat more raw but somebody is cooking the most amazing smelling curry! That is SO NOT FAIR! The aromatic spices and smells are causing my saliva glands to work overtime. Maybe I should put up a sign that says, “Raw Foodist in training, please be considerate”….OH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, WILL YOU PLEASE CLOSE YOUR WINDOWS???

I have a confession to make…I cheated. Big time. The day started off well. A delicious organic smoothie chock-full of nuts, raw cacao powder, apples, bananas, strawberries, blueberries and the most delicious smelling coconut oil, topped with a generous sprinkling of frozen Goji berries. This is how I’ve been starting my day, everyday for the past month. Shortly afterwards, some friends and I went to a party and that’s where things went downhill. First it started off with the hors d’oeuvres. So small, so innocent looking and so delicious. Given the scant portions and the wave of hunger that hit us, we decided to leave. Now, this is where I could say that I was dragged against my will to the local Indian banana leaf restaurant and force-fed by my ruthless friends. I could say that. The truth is I completely pigged out on indian curries, butter and garlic naan breads and two different kinds of Biryani and it didn’t stop there either. When we got home, dinner was followed by red wine and cheese.

I feel like such a fraud, failure, you name it. I’ve had some really amazing raw dishes but every now and then I’ll have a ‘relapse’ and go back to my old eating habits. There are some things that I am struggling to cut down on like cheese and wine. A friend of mind recommended giving my kitchen a ’spring clean’ and toss out all the processed foods. Therein lies the trouble. I have great difficulty throwing things away, a habit I’ve inherited from my mother.

I wonder if David Wolfe or other raw foodist experienced the same thing and how it took them?